T -4 Days

I'm officially moving to Oklahoma in four days. Where before I'm super confident that this would be an easy transition for me emotionally; packing up..leaving..seeing my room empty, ummm... not so much anymore. Maybe because I've let it simmer for a while, having a couple of weeks not really having anything on my plate, but only to spend time with family makes me realize how much I'm really going to miss them. I'm going to miss that overwhelming love and comfort I feel when I'm with them and when I'm home with them. The more I think that I'm leaving in a couple of days and I can't have it all, it's like getting split in the middle and it's a bit painful. I don't think I'm being unreal with myself if I say that it is a little frightening as I've never been away from home for any longer than 4 weeks. I honestly have not ever.. done laundry, cleaned bathrooms, paid for my cell phone bill, car insurance, even know when or how to get my oil changed, ever changed a flat tire; because I've been fortunately spoiled that I've had my family do these things for me. But I need to face my reality that these last 4 years Jeric and I have been together, that it's coming down to this. What I've got to do is to make sure I carry with me the values and teachings that I've learned from my Family. And this is very very important to me, otherwise I'd be completely lost in all of the uncertainties this world brings.

Jeric and I, we have a life to build together and I can't wait to start this with him. I have no doubt we'll make it through any challenges in life as we have overcame so much already. And from Jeric's family I've seen first hand how distance really doesn't matter when it comes to Love. That a family and a couple can remain close no matter how far they are from each other. Being 5000 something miles away from my family will not stop me from skypeing, from text messaging, from calling, from visiting. From doing all that I can to stay close and connected with family and friends.

My flight leaves around 2pm on December 30th. My last worship service at Burien was today, tomorrow will be my last day as Burien's LOS Secretary. I'm really going to miss the brethren from Burien, especially my LOS family.

Seattle, you've been great to me! And you've been my home for the last 15 years... and I'm going to miss your beautiful landscape, but definitely not your early morning traffic and rain.

What I'm going to miss most for sure is you Ruby, my Nissan Altima. Since high school you've been my car. You've gotten me to cheer practices, football games, to my first date, my college classes, to my college graduation, to my first job, to my bus stops, to church... and even though you have 182,000+ miles in you I will never trade you in for any other car, not even a white Lexus SC430. They've got nothing on you. I'm going to miss you but I'll come back for you I promise!!!